Woman In the Mirror

"Home is not where you live, but where they understand you.” -Christian Morganstern

As a girl (and a self admittedly complicated one at best), I've always found myself to do and act almost entirely on emotion. I make lots of decisions, concur revelations, and make random observations... all more than likely influenced by my emotions developed and gathered by a life of experiences. This makes my highs moving, my lows defeating and my regrets more real.Everything becomes as vivid as a motion picture sometimes and the emotional scars of my heartbreaks and triumphs, victories and upsets and everything people simply refer to as the past adds up but just like the ocean, it ebbs away to a peaceful and dormant rhythmic existence.
This year, the holidays are a constant reminder of what I used to be and how in four months I have been on a marvelous adventure. The small dreary town where I live still doesn't excite me. It still doesn't enthrall me to beat down the door and come every weekend. On the contrary, it makes me thankful that I have a chair to curl up in when I go back home to my dorm, and best of all, a home I can take care of. Domestic stability is something many people take for granted but after never feeling home anywhere, it's such a relief to finally call something mine. Even if my neighbors play video games and make tons of noise and even if I spend more time by myself than anyone else, I absolutely love it.
This revelation, while one that brings me comfort has also turned into a catalyst for many other things. By finally having a comfortable home, I've begun to feel comfortable with myself. It takes alot to think about who I am and where I'm going but the fact that I finally have a home just might make it more worthwhile.
I lastly leave you with this. A video that has helped me see things differently. :)