"Lost"

 

"By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest."

-Confucius 

I LOVE how fate has a twisted sense of humor.
The world is in an uproar, and I am in my own right.
Why am I in an uproar? David and I are speaking again, particularly, he's gotten himself into an issue that is even more screwed up than my life. Do I even want to get into this?
Not really.
I haven't seen Mark in ages, and part of me thinks Sergio is keeping it like that. It worries me but what am I supposed to do about it? NADA.

So now, why is the world in an uproar exactly?

I got a tattoo. Yes, you read that right. After 3 years of research, contemplating and thinking, I finally got my tattoo and I am in love with it and sooo happy that I waited on it. But for some reason, me getting a tattoo makes everyone think I got it on impulse when in fact it was the total opposite. Either way, it's quite the chaos as of recent. Clearly, the comments I've gotten most are "What did your mother say?!" and "What were you thinking?!" and in all honesty neither concern me (because my Mother was there when I got it and I thought it through the entire way)
I suppose right now I'm writing from a very cranky and worn out state which only leaves me to hope that 5 weeks from now (After I can say that I survived my Freshman year) that I'll be a better writer.
Even so, I can't help but feel like I'm blaming my lack of writing on my stress, which really I can say I bring on myself but from my perspective in life, do things ever get easier as you get older?
Does this feeling of being lost and distant from society ever go away? I'm starting to wonder when exactly I started going on autopilot and stopped doing things because I honestly remembered and enjoyed them. Anyhow, it's all just a bunch of rambling at this point, isn't it?
For me it is. The soliloquies of my life known as my blogging can only be a certain type of productive and I should really consider keeping a cohesive story line other than vague mentions.