"Everybody knows but nobody really knows..."

Today I woke up and suddenly everything was clearer. After venting for days straight about everything - a broken heart, a mind whizzing forty million miles an hour, my odd encounter with fate and going to college- I woke up today

1) Later than usual

2) with a clear head
3) Without a headache

4) Mildly okay

I guess what I needed to do was come to terms with everything. I've been nagging so long about finding closure with my old life and trying to move forward that it never occurred to me that just maybe closure was something I had to find for myself, starting with the biggest open question mark of my life. David and I had issues mostly on my front but I decided that whatever we had is in the past and I need to move forward in a healthy way. I can go on not dropping snide remarks or thinking he's up to something. And I 'm happy to say that I no longer see him in the panging way I used to. I guess (500) Days of Summer taught me one thing. We can believe in fate and think it has a twisted way of screwing us over but when it all comes down to it, things happen for a reason and who are we to know what that reason is until later.

Everybody thinks they know everything about life and learning but maybe this is just one of those things where we don't really need to know. I've got to let go. And once I realized all of this, life made sense once again.

Let's just hope it lasts.