"But I Do Love You"

"Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never."

-Charles Caleb Colton

Today was Independence Day, my first away from my family since I moved out and while I was lucky someone wanted my shift, I missed my family. I missed my friends. I missed alot of things. Even more so, I couldn't stop thinking about alot of things. While I was originally going to spend it with David's family, my sisters instead invited me to a cookout, where I sat relatively silent, enjoying dessert my sister Leanna and I made while thinking about life. I got a call from a really good friend today so it was a nice thing to be thinking about (and to know that he thought to call me too.) Still, I couldn't help but think about lots of things in my life.

I don't like...
spending time away from my family
walking into a room and knowing that people are thinking so many things about you
having to think about school and work on a day off from both
missing people I shouldn't
missing people that don't deserve it 
being the ugly friend
being overshadowed and ignored
the nagging feelings of being single 
missing fireworks displays

I like...
the calls/texts that start my day
spending the day with my sisters
baking and taking my stress out on Devil's food and homemade frosting
 hanging out with people from work and making new connections