"What I Cannot Change"

Lately there have been so many things going on, more than I've accurately been able to describe. Maybe that's my fault, maybe I'm adding more weight than I really should. Still, it's safe to say, I'm feeling down.
I've had a couple of lonely nights here in my dorm, but then again I had lonely nights at home. But these aren't the lonely nights of being homesick my friends have. They go home every other weekend, sometimes during weekdays because they miss their families and they miss home, no matter how shitty it was. I am nowhere near close to missing home. I am absolutely sure I could go the rest of my life and never go back home to my small town.
What I'm missing is having a confidante, a real guy who can stand by my side and just be a good influence. I've noticed so many of my friends going on dates and having fun but I'm still shaking off a few insecurities, you know? But even so, I get somewhat frustrated. Behind every great man is a supportive woman. Behind every great woman is an empty shadow because men are too afraid to approach her. Well, tomorrow is a new day...