"There Are Worse Things I Could Do"

"A smile is the light in your window that tells others that there is a caring, sharing person inside."

-Denis Waitley

So maybe things at best are exhausting right but that being said, I suppose I should have seen this coming.
Right now, I'm experiencing a mild lack of faith in people. No one in specific, just overall.
A potential relationship that I really hoped for, didn't work out. I was expecting that. And while he's used the "It's not you- It's me" excuse, I know all too well. Usually it's me and I've heard this so many times. Still, there's more.

My mom and I are pretty much at each others throats. This is the understatement of the year. We haven't spoken in days. It's lovely to know that she thinks my troubles are my fault.

I'm due to get cut off completely any day now.

I'm scary broke right now, and as always, I have to be the one to figure things out and deal with it myself. I mean, it's called being an adult for a reason and this is part of being an adult is a clear reminder of responsibility. However, I can't help but feel like part of it is my fault. Like Murphy's Law and I have some kind of arrangement that's been around since birth.
But still, I suppose the worst thing I could let happen is cave in and admit that just maybe, I'm tired of being strong.
But that's not gonna happen.
That's the worst thing I could do.